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Monday, June 29, 2009
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Just another day then I had the best day of my life
Jesse McCartney - Best Day of My Life
Screen shot of Tim's AIM status.
Thursday, June 11, 2009, my brother Tim will be moving out of our home in Santa Clara and into his house in SD with Alex and the boys. Reading that really breaks tears to my eyes. These past few years, I've been so bitter with the way he's been acting about everything and despised him for his actions, words, and remorse and it wasn't until these past few months that I've understood where he's coming from. I need to do this for the two of us. I need to keep going with Cal Poly and get my degree for the two of us. All we have left is the two of us. It's finals week. I can't break down now. Gotta get my act together.
Saturday, June 27, 2009 will be my other brother Tuan's engagement dinner with his girlfriend. If there was one thing I wanted, it would be for Tim to be there with support. I know he never will give in to that though. I with I knew what to do. Something I could do but there's no chance he'll be there and there's nothing I could do about it. Please don't go and tell me there is something I could do and that I'm being all pessimistic and shit because there isn't. If there was, I would have done it already.
I want to go back to the days of the 3 T's. The wonder years. One day.. hopefully by the time of my CP c/o '12 graduation. (If I graduate in time that is..)
Screen shot of Tim's AIM status.
Thursday, June 11, 2009, my brother Tim will be moving out of our home in Santa Clara and into his house in SD with Alex and the boys. Reading that really breaks tears to my eyes. These past few years, I've been so bitter with the way he's been acting about everything and despised him for his actions, words, and remorse and it wasn't until these past few months that I've understood where he's coming from. I need to do this for the two of us. I need to keep going with Cal Poly and get my degree for the two of us. All we have left is the two of us. It's finals week. I can't break down now. Gotta get my act together.
Saturday, June 27, 2009 will be my other brother Tuan's engagement dinner with his girlfriend. If there was one thing I wanted, it would be for Tim to be there with support. I know he never will give in to that though. I with I knew what to do. Something I could do but there's no chance he'll be there and there's nothing I could do about it. Please don't go and tell me there is something I could do and that I'm being all pessimistic and shit because there isn't. If there was, I would have done it already.
I want to go back to the days of the 3 T's. The wonder years. One day.. hopefully by the time of my CP c/o '12 graduation. (If I graduate in time that is..)
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Baby won't you come and take this pain away
Diddy - Last Night
Hahahah, I put the randomest songs ever. I promise it's allll iTunes' shuffle. Maybe I'll babble about the song a little, yeah? Yes? Okay! Do you really need someone to take your pain away? Can't you do it yourself? I know I've been bitter and all but this is all out of my attempts of being realistic. Cmon guys, it's called independence. Blah blah blah. I don't know whatever. I like hearing this song on shuffle. :) ANYHOW! That wasn't even the effin reason I wanted to blog.
I wanted to blog because it is finals week, dun dun DUN. Why do I sound so optimistic and jittery? I think I'm losing it, it might be true. Whatever, I did pretty decent on my Psych final and I'm happy about that. Too bad that's one of my smallest worries. I'm soooooo fucked for Micro, oh well. Gotta get studying after this post. Shit, I need to start packing too.
Ever since I came here, I think I've grown a great level of independence-ish. Kindof. Not so much in the level of like negative, you know? More like being able to take care of myself and take problems on head-on. Most of the time that is. I thought I said I was a work in progress? Still progressing and will be forever and ever and ever. I really hope that people know that I'm not as pessimistic and a broken wreck as I often make it seem. I'm not that bad. Just trying to get by day by day and pursuit my goals and dreams.
Don't tell anyone this, but I'm a bit sad to leave SLO. It's my sanctuary from the ridiculous things going on at home.
Hahahah, I put the randomest songs ever. I promise it's allll iTunes' shuffle. Maybe I'll babble about the song a little, yeah? Yes? Okay! Do you really need someone to take your pain away? Can't you do it yourself? I know I've been bitter and all but this is all out of my attempts of being realistic. Cmon guys, it's called independence. Blah blah blah. I don't know whatever. I like hearing this song on shuffle. :) ANYHOW! That wasn't even the effin reason I wanted to blog.
I wanted to blog because it is finals week, dun dun DUN. Why do I sound so optimistic and jittery? I think I'm losing it, it might be true. Whatever, I did pretty decent on my Psych final and I'm happy about that. Too bad that's one of my smallest worries. I'm soooooo fucked for Micro, oh well. Gotta get studying after this post. Shit, I need to start packing too.
Ever since I came here, I think I've grown a great level of independence-ish. Kindof. Not so much in the level of like negative, you know? More like being able to take care of myself and take problems on head-on. Most of the time that is. I thought I said I was a work in progress? Still progressing and will be forever and ever and ever. I really hope that people know that I'm not as pessimistic and a broken wreck as I often make it seem. I'm not that bad. Just trying to get by day by day and pursuit my goals and dreams.
Don't tell anyone this, but I'm a bit sad to leave SLO. It's my sanctuary from the ridiculous things going on at home.
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