January

So, I didn't really have a real sincere post at all this month and that disappoints me because I have so much free time now. Also since I've had so much on my mind and much more on my mind. I'm more disappointed in myself for almost being as discontent with this quarter/month as I was last year. I told myself I was gonna work on it and not let it turn out like last month. Now, there's about 29 minutes left and I'm only hoping for a better month.

Then again, hoping can only do so much. I need to do something about it. Maybe I should be more on top of school and life to make it up to myself. Honestly, I just miss my friends a lot right now. I miss Clarenz. I miss Ralph. I miss my Greaterest. I miss #JD. I miss #JG. I miss Angelina. Sometimes, I even miss when being close with Donna. I miss Asis and sometimes T3. I miss the little bit of confidence I had last quarter. There are so many things I miss right now, I can't even list them all. Most of all, I miss loving SLO.

Really, I miss my friends a lot. Maybe that's why I always miss high school. All of our little outings and adventures whether we had cars or not. What the hell is wrong with me? I'm beginning to think I did this for myself. The summers with #JD. By the way, I still have the cookie hero thing. I miss tearing shit up with the boys. I remember that one night us plus Aladin went hot tubbing at Catalina Apts and just went to Jack in the Box after doing random shit.

Thanks for still sticking by me Clarenz, especially these last few weeks. ♥

My heart hurts.

February, we're gonna have a good time. Good night.